Thursday, July 25, 2013

When Your Heart Is Broken

He heals the broken heart quotes god faith bible

Psalm 147:3

 He heals the brokenhearted
And binds up their wounds.


Life can just be so amazing and hard at the same time.  The one thing I have learned that if you don't experience any type of hardships or difficulties you can never grow and get to know God better.  I have been through so much in my life but It did not kill me.  Today I wanted to just talk about broken hearts.  I wanted to just share my own story and of what I am going  through and how their is healing in God's presence.   This week I was totally taken by surprise by a family situation.  it hit me hard and I started off with anger.  once the anger subsided it followed with  tears of hurt.  I have not felt the pain of having a broken heart in a long time and when it hit me it felt like someone took my heart and was just putting a large amount of pressure on it that cause total emotional pain.   As a teen I help raise one of my little cousins.  Her mom, my aunt was tragically killed and I was already living with my grandmother so she came to live with us.  So both of us were living in the home with my grandmother.  My grandmother at some point took on two jobs to help take care of the both of us and as I got old enough I got a job to help out.   I love this little  girl of mine so very much.  For one she was my aunts daughter and my was like my best friend.  We had a really special bond.  So with my little cousin being just shy of two years old at this tragic event I spent Lot's of time with her.  I took her wherever I went.  Whether it be football games at high school, or to the mall to hang out, she was where ever I was.  I dressed her like me, I taught her how to write her name, her colors, ABC, all that.  I did whatever I could to make her happy. 


Tragically two and a half years later after I just graduated high school and my cousin now five and just completing grade K my grandma dies.  She dies of cancer and she did not tell anyone she was dying so it was just all of a sudden for us.  Me being just a little over 18 years of age and being pregnant with my own child decisions had to be made with who was next going to take care of her.  I wanted to keep her but I was not yet fully equipped to just starting to figure out my own life.  My uncle decided that it would be best if he took her to live with him and his wife and children.  I thought so too but I did not want to let her go.  I had to explain to her that she was going to live with a uncle that she hardly knew and away from me, the person she was so close too.  It was really hard and it is still hard even to talk about it now.  I still feel the pain of that day and I am in tears as I write this.  She goes and since that time I have seen her off and on over the last 14 years.  I have seen her at different ages in her life.  Now she is almost 18 and starting college back here home close to me again.  I am so fully of excitement because I always felt that when she is able to live back here she is she is going to shower me with love as I am going to do her and all is going to be great.  That  time has come and it is nothing as I expect it to be.  I still love her with a deep love as when she was 5 but she does not really know me.  She has visited me but that same love she shows my uncle and his wife's family is not the same that she shows me.  It is distant and unknown.  It hurts me to the core and I cried for two days.  As I am going through this I read God's word because I realized that the same hurt I felt during those other tragic events with my family members passed away years ago, I feel that same pain although she is physically still here but that bond is dead.  I started reading what God has to say about being broken  and how to be healed. 


I have really been seeking God for the last two days and I am not 100% but I am so much better than I was.  God is healing me.  I realized that I never really dealt with that pain and hurt from long time ago with these tragedies and I had to deal with this new pain and the old.  Talking about double whammy!  But in this all God is good and does heal us  He takes the tear that happens in your heart and he binds them up.  I am living in this scripture right now.  It takes time.

I get Lot's of prayer  request through Beautiful Awakening and people are hurting.  From past relationships and how people have hurt them.  I can honestly say that God will heal you.  The key is that you have to want the healing.  Often times we say we want the pain to go away but we actually don't want to let go of the past, that hurt because we we love the person that hurt us and in trying to hold on to that same love we keep the pain with it.  We have to still love them but let go of what event. we have to look forward and Believe.  The bible says in

Isaiah 43: 18 Remember not the former things, nor consider the things of old.

Psalm 55:22 says cast your burden on the LORD, and he will sustain you; he will never permit the righteous to be moved. 

You can make it through the hurt and the pain.  God can restore relationships with families, he love the family unit.  He desires nothing more but for you and your family to be in love and peace with one another.  Just  trust him to make the necessary changes in that persons life.  you can't change a persons mindset or ways but pray that God changes it.  

My husband has been so encouraging to me during this time and he understand.  He kept telling me it is all going to work out, it has to.  I started thinking what does he mean it has too?  Then I come across God's word that says in

Romans 8:28 And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to his purpose.

1 Corinthains 13:7 Love bears all things , hopes all things, endures all things.

Hebrews 11:1  Now faith is the substance of things hoped for , the evidence of things not seen.

God is so amazing and how we lives to make things right for his people.  How we don't have to hurt from our past for too long because he promises to make things better for those who love him.  So for all that send prayer request because your hearts are broken Just  trust God.  Give all those hurt feelings to him and turn to him to help you deal with your pain.  Forgive, Let Go, and Move On.   God Bless each and everyone of you!


Christian Quote for the Brokenhearted:

"Your most profound and intimate experiences of worship will likely be in your darkest days- when your heart is broken, when you feel abandoned, when your out of options when the pain is great- and you turn to God alone." - Rick Warren


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