Thursday, July 25, 2013

When Your Heart Is Broken

He heals the broken heart quotes god faith bible

Psalm 147:3

 He heals the brokenhearted
And binds up their wounds.


Life can just be so amazing and hard at the same time.  The one thing I have learned that if you don't experience any type of hardships or difficulties you can never grow and get to know God better.  I have been through so much in my life but It did not kill me.  Today I wanted to just talk about broken hearts.  I wanted to just share my own story and of what I am going  through and how their is healing in God's presence.   This week I was totally taken by surprise by a family situation.  it hit me hard and I started off with anger.  once the anger subsided it followed with  tears of hurt.  I have not felt the pain of having a broken heart in a long time and when it hit me it felt like someone took my heart and was just putting a large amount of pressure on it that cause total emotional pain.   As a teen I help raise one of my little cousins.  Her mom, my aunt was tragically killed and I was already living with my grandmother so she came to live with us.  So both of us were living in the home with my grandmother.  My grandmother at some point took on two jobs to help take care of the both of us and as I got old enough I got a job to help out.   I love this little  girl of mine so very much.  For one she was my aunts daughter and my was like my best friend.  We had a really special bond.  So with my little cousin being just shy of two years old at this tragic event I spent Lot's of time with her.  I took her wherever I went.  Whether it be football games at high school, or to the mall to hang out, she was where ever I was.  I dressed her like me, I taught her how to write her name, her colors, ABC, all that.  I did whatever I could to make her happy. 


Tragically two and a half years later after I just graduated high school and my cousin now five and just completing grade K my grandma dies.  She dies of cancer and she did not tell anyone she was dying so it was just all of a sudden for us.  Me being just a little over 18 years of age and being pregnant with my own child decisions had to be made with who was next going to take care of her.  I wanted to keep her but I was not yet fully equipped to just starting to figure out my own life.  My uncle decided that it would be best if he took her to live with him and his wife and children.  I thought so too but I did not want to let her go.  I had to explain to her that she was going to live with a uncle that she hardly knew and away from me, the person she was so close too.  It was really hard and it is still hard even to talk about it now.  I still feel the pain of that day and I am in tears as I write this.  She goes and since that time I have seen her off and on over the last 14 years.  I have seen her at different ages in her life.  Now she is almost 18 and starting college back here home close to me again.  I am so fully of excitement because I always felt that when she is able to live back here she is she is going to shower me with love as I am going to do her and all is going to be great.  That  time has come and it is nothing as I expect it to be.  I still love her with a deep love as when she was 5 but she does not really know me.  She has visited me but that same love she shows my uncle and his wife's family is not the same that she shows me.  It is distant and unknown.  It hurts me to the core and I cried for two days.  As I am going through this I read God's word because I realized that the same hurt I felt during those other tragic events with my family members passed away years ago, I feel that same pain although she is physically still here but that bond is dead.  I started reading what God has to say about being broken  and how to be healed. 


I have really been seeking God for the last two days and I am not 100% but I am so much better than I was.  God is healing me.  I realized that I never really dealt with that pain and hurt from long time ago with these tragedies and I had to deal with this new pain and the old.  Talking about double whammy!  But in this all God is good and does heal us  He takes the tear that happens in your heart and he binds them up.  I am living in this scripture right now.  It takes time.

I get Lot's of prayer  request through Beautiful Awakening and people are hurting.  From past relationships and how people have hurt them.  I can honestly say that God will heal you.  The key is that you have to want the healing.  Often times we say we want the pain to go away but we actually don't want to let go of the past, that hurt because we we love the person that hurt us and in trying to hold on to that same love we keep the pain with it.  We have to still love them but let go of what event. we have to look forward and Believe.  The bible says in

Isaiah 43: 18 Remember not the former things, nor consider the things of old.

Psalm 55:22 says cast your burden on the LORD, and he will sustain you; he will never permit the righteous to be moved. 

You can make it through the hurt and the pain.  God can restore relationships with families, he love the family unit.  He desires nothing more but for you and your family to be in love and peace with one another.  Just  trust him to make the necessary changes in that persons life.  you can't change a persons mindset or ways but pray that God changes it.  

My husband has been so encouraging to me during this time and he understand.  He kept telling me it is all going to work out, it has to.  I started thinking what does he mean it has too?  Then I come across God's word that says in

Romans 8:28 And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to his purpose.

1 Corinthains 13:7 Love bears all things , hopes all things, endures all things.

Hebrews 11:1  Now faith is the substance of things hoped for , the evidence of things not seen.

God is so amazing and how we lives to make things right for his people.  How we don't have to hurt from our past for too long because he promises to make things better for those who love him.  So for all that send prayer request because your hearts are broken Just  trust God.  Give all those hurt feelings to him and turn to him to help you deal with your pain.  Forgive, Let Go, and Move On.   God Bless each and everyone of you!


Christian Quote for the Brokenhearted:

"Your most profound and intimate experiences of worship will likely be in your darkest days- when your heart is broken, when you feel abandoned, when your out of options when the pain is great- and you turn to God alone." - Rick Warren


Tuesday, July 16, 2013

Living In The Presence Of God

Psalm 27:4 NKJV

One thing I have desired of the Lord,
That will I seek:
That I may dwell in the house of the Lord
All the days of my life,
To behold the beauty of the Lord,
And to inquire in His temple.
5 For in the time of trouble
He shall hide me in His pavilion;
In the secret place of His tabernacle
He shall hide me;
He shall set me high upon a rock

As I was still up at 2am studying the word of God I read this scripture and when I read it, it touched me because this scripture is my deepest thoughts and desires of myself and my relationship with God.  Even though my physical brain cannot understand the connection I have with God my Spirit does.  My spirit connects with God on a level of total Faith and Knowing that he is my Father and God.  I really believe that I will be with him forever and that everything I go good he is the source and everything bad he has my back to deliver.  I believe in that favor I have with him.  I believe that I am totally protected by God from any harm.  That when things do show up he is going to make a way for me to come out on top.  I believe these things with all my heart and the reason I believe them is because I live in his presence.  I could not be anything that I am today without his presence going everywhere I go.  There is nothing like being in the presence of God.  We should make a habit out of being in his presence at all times.  No matter what we are doing.   Your ultimate desire should be in his presence and have it surround you like a shield.   Greatness lies in his presence.  We should never want to be absence from God's presence.

So you may ask what are the benefits from being in God's presence?

We can be sure that he will help us
When we are in his presence we can be sure to have all wisdom and knowledge to go about your daily task and activities.
We can avoid situations when we live in his presence.  There are certain things we will not do and things we will not touch when are are living daily in his presence
We can see things come before they are about to happen.  God will not allow some things to sneak up on you but he will nudge at you and give you a spirit of discernment.

God Presence = His Mindset

God's Mindset = His Word

You have to live in his word in order to be successful.  There is no true success outside of God's Word.   You can be successful at anything because you have the complete instruction Guide on how to do so which is his word.

If you are not living in God Presence and you have a strong desire to be in his presence God will take care of you.  He will give you his presence which is what he is looking for.
God Honors our efforts.  I had to learn that I am not perfect nor will I ever reach perfection here on earth.  I learned that if I stay in his presence and do the very best I can he will honor my efforts.   God really does honor our efforts and those things we fail at he makes us strong in those areas so that we can succeed and not fail. Follow your heart to serve God completely.  My one desire in all that I do is to be pleasing to him  Make your life about him.  It has to be about him.  I know it may be hard for your to not think of yourself but it has to be done.  God will take care of what you want and need.  Whatever you do anyway should ultimately be about hi, so you can serve him better.  Live in his presence today!


Psalm 27:4
Psalm 18:28
Isaiah 60:19, 20
Micha 7:8

Friday, July 12, 2013

Happy Friday:)

Enjoy your weekend and praise God for another week survived.  Although it may have not been easy you still made it and the grace of God is upon you!  Never stop praising God.  It is your weapon against the enemy and all he does to try and stop or discourage you.   When on the mountain top praise his name, even when in the valley you still praise him.  you should never lose praise on your lips.  It is your only hope!  I hope you all enjoy your weekend and take the weekend to look over some messages here meditate on the word.  For those that are sending in prayer request please know that I lift you up in my prayers on a regular basis. Please send any praise reports I love to hear when God had answered some prayers of his people. For the word say The Lords is far from the wicked but He hears the prayers of the righteous.  Proverbs 15:29

God Bless,


Wednesday, July 10, 2013

Devotional: What type of seed are you?

And when a great multitude had gathered, and they had come to Him from every city, He spoke by a parable: 5 “A sower went out to sow his seed. And as he sowed, some fell by the wayside; and it was trampled down, and the birds of the air devoured it. 6 Some fell on rock; and as soon as it sprang up, it withered away because it lacked moisture. 7 And some fell among thorns, and the thorns sprang up with it and choked it. 8 But others fell on good ground, sprang up, and yielded a crop a hundredfold.” When He had said these things He cried, “He who has ears to hear, let him hear!”
9 Then His disciples asked Him, saying, “What does this parable mean?”

10 And He said, “To you it has been given to know the mysteries of the kingdom of God, but to the rest it is given in parables, that
‘Seeing they may not see,
And hearing they may not understand.’

11 “Now the parable is this: The seed is the word of God. 12 Those by the wayside are the ones who hear; then the devil comes and takes away the word out of their hearts, lest they should believe and be saved. 13 But the ones on the rock are those who, when they hear, receive the word with joy; and these have no root, who believe for a while and in time of temptation fall away. 14 Now the ones that fell among thorns are those who, when they have heard, go out and are choked with cares, riches, and pleasures of life, and bring no fruit to maturity. 15 But the ones that fell on the good ground are those who, having heard the word with a noble and good heart, keep it and bear fruit with patience.

I am so lucky to have the kind of God I have simply because he is faithful.  He gives me much hope when there seems to be none.   When life knocks you down more than once and twice, it is easy to be discouraged.  To never try again because you are going to continue to fail.  When people are in charge of giving the green light on something and you have been given the red light over and over again, its easy to never try again.  Never Give Up!   I don’t care how many times you fail or plans don’t go your way, have the courage to stand up and try again.  Have the courage not care how many times they say no but know that God is for you.  Know that he is ruler over everything!  You are his so he will work everything out for you.  I don’t know fully what all he will do for me but I know he will not fail in my life.  I am going to rise up keep trying and not give up.  As long as I know I am leaving right before God he will not withhould anything good from me.  Have hope today and do not be discouraged!  His Mercy last forever and does not run out.

If it is just a little bit of promise you can hold on to, hold it.  Don’t let it go.  God will do what his word says.  Greatness is knowing that his promises will go true and his ultimate desire is to fullfill his plans for your life.  He loves you just that much to want to set you high above the mountains so that you can be successful.  

God Bless,